“My cup runneth over.” We know the verse from Psalms. But is it true? I have this theory that my cup is actually leaking like crazy. Let me explain.
Sitting in church I got this image in my head. An image of God pouring himself out into “my cup”, as the verse says. But it’s not running over. It’s leaking like crazy. God can’t keep up with the leaking and my cup remains empty. But what he brings I’m not accepting. Yes, there is emptiness in my life, but I’m not going to God to fill it. I’ve got a million other options out there to fill my cup. And they’re all toxic. Literally burning holes through this metaphorical cup of mine so that every time I fill my wants and needs with anything other than God the holes just get bigger, and leak faster, and I seek to fill them faster and faster and I can’t keep up either.
We’re all looking to fill our cups somehow. And we don’t even need to leave the couch to do it. We’re filled up by TV, YouTube, Facebook, Instagram, SnapChat, Twitter. Heck, who needs a drug addiction anymore? Fill it faster! It’s leaking. Fill it faster! And maybe for you it is way beyond TV and social media. Maybe you’re drinking, using drugs, addicted to sex, pornography.
The supply of things to fill your cup is absolutely endless. And the greater our need, the more toxins we pour in. We’re convinced that if we just keep turning up the intensity of what we pour into that cup that we’ll satisfy that need, fill that cup. But the more toxic we go, the bigger the holes get. And we find ourselves distant from God. God must just sit there looking at us with sadness, knowing how easy it would be to fill that cup with one single pour of clean, pure water that washes away all of the toxins and begins healing us. So why do we reject this pure water for our cups? Why do we keep trying harder and harder to pour faster the very things we know are causing bigger and bigger leaks?
I’ve got this long list of things I need to get done before accepting that pure water from God. We’re trying to patch up this cup ourselves and plug the holes so THEN we can go get that refreshing pure water and cleanse. And there is Christ, standing there with his hand out and a beautiful, fresh, perfect cup just waiting to hand it to us. But I have such a hard time just taking it because I haven’t earned it. It’s hard for me to get past that.
So now what? Do we close our eyes and say, “Yea Lord on High I beseech thee accept my life into thy hands… blah blah blah.” Trust me, I’ve done the dramatic “give my life to God” speech a thousand times. After a few days or a few weeks, my life went back to the way it was. Pour, pour, pour. Faster, faster, faster. More toxic by the day. What to do?
I’m going to do exactly what I’d do if I wanted to build a real, lasting relationship with any person I might meet. I’ll talk to God every day. And I’ll focus on just regular conversation. Not some formula, and not while I’m falling asleep on my pillow. I actually like the whole praying on my knees thing because it helps me focus. My mind races all over the place, but not as much while I’m on my knees. So I’ll do that. And at first it will seem weird, or ineffective, but I’ll stay at it.
And I’ll read God’s book. Right now I don’t hear from God very often. There is a lot of competing noise in my head so that still small voice gets drowned out pretty easily. But I can hear from God by reading his word, and I’ll do that too. No magic pills here. This is pretty simple nuts and bolts type stuff. I’ll do it, and bring you along for the ride. Hope you bring me along on your ride too.
Have a good night, all. I’ll see you next week.