I had vowed I’d never write this post. I’ve vowed alot of stuff. If I kept every weight loss vow I’ve made I would come in at a spry eleven pounds right now. But here it is… the “Sorry for not posting” post. Add me to list of every other blogger who came out of the gate sprinting and then at some point remembered that he still had a job.
So what’s going on in me? Well for a long time, I was getting manna from heaven in 52 foot semi trailers. The ideas were coming. The thoughts were flowing. And then they dried up. Right around the time I determined that I’ve got a pretty good job, with pretty decent pay, and pretty good people to work with and I’d better get my head back in the game and earn every dime of that pay. So the eternal battle of income versus faith rages on in my head.
And to make it worse, I’m listening to a podcast sermon yesterday and hear, “When you’re on the edge of breaking free to God the devil will deliver a promotion and drag you back into the rat race.” That Tony Evans has a way with words. I didn’t exactly get a promotion, but things changed at work and they really sweetened the deal around here for everyone. So now I’ve got that running through my head.
It’s amazing how often a blessing looks almost exactly the same as a temptation.
I should have warned: This post does not contain the answers. Sorry about that. I could have saved you a few paragraphs of reading. But that’s what is going on in my head right now. I have on one hand the ability to to great work, for great people, and work that I really love to do, and get paid pretty decent to do it. Enough that my wife doesn’t have to work and we can still grab a pizza now and again. On the other hand, I have this blog which takes time, and Sunday School with takes time. And wow do I love those. Those kids on Sunday morning. Talk about filling your tank with inspiration. They are amazing.
Battle battle. It’s going on in my head. I look at guys like Chris Martin and feel like I’m a toddler in my faith compared to this guy. I’m trying to work this out in my head. As is often the case, I am spending alot of time doing that on my own without including prayer in the equation. For some reason that only comes after a long time for me. I think I basically work out the details within myself and then stop by and visit God to get the stamp of approval from him. Not saying that’s the right way. But it’s my way and I haven’t fixed it yet. But I need to.
For now, I’m trying to work on balance. I could easily write this blog in the time I waste on Facebook, so there’s a thought. But I could also actually BE PRESENT with my kids at that same time instead of flicking through humorous George Takei memes and “Click if you love Jesus” posts.
But here’s this post and it only took a few minutes. And as is often the case, I’ve popped off a few quick ideas for new posts that came to me while writing this one. So it would appear I remain a work in progress. Gasp! Thanks for reading everyone. And if you happen to have all the answers, please throw a few in the comments.
You guys rock!
We were all built to be heroes. With Jobs. This is complicated.